Just when Britney Spears was easing into life outside of the conservatorship that ruled her very existence for over a decade, the music icon was dealt another blow when her ex-husband attempted to paint her in a negative light. Spears has recently been taking to social media to air her family's dirty laundry after years of silence, and although it has made for some epic social media moments, it has also been a therapeutic release for the singer. However, recently Spears engaged in a spat with her ex-husband Kevin Federline who decided to post years-old videos of the singer arguing with her two sons.
The controversy landed Spears and her family back in headlines after after taking some time for reflection, the hitmaker returned with a lengthy Instagram caption where she spoke about her insecurities.
Spears said that social media makes it seem as if everyone's life is perfect while she struggles with the shame and embarrassment of her past.
"And who can forget those documentaries ??? So yes, I do try and post me looking my best or what it may seem to be the good life," she wrote. "Well the truth is, my spirits are better but I will forever be traumatized by my past experience for life … there is no way to fix me, my emotions and my sensitivity … therapy, all of it !!! I think I will need some sort of miracle for my emotions. My life is by no means picture perfect … I cry myself to sleep most night."
She added that although she is a performer, she struggles with things like posing for photos or walking appropriately. People see her for the "act" that she provides on stage, but in real life, she doesn't have a "clue" what to do.
Read through the entirety of her message below.