<p>Ahead of the two-hour <em>Love &amp; Hip Hop New York</em> premiere, VH1 took its cast members through a walk down memory lane. Some people sat and watched old footage of themselves fighting and carrying on, but Cyn Santana&#8217;s moment could be considered the most emotional. It was around <a href="https://www.hotnewhiphop.com/joe-budden-proposes-to-cyn-santana-watch-news.67272.html" target="_blank" rel="nofollow noopener">this time last year when Joe proposed to Cyn</a> during a live broadcast of his podcast with Rory and Mal. The moment was captured by <em>Love &amp; Hip Hop</em> cameras and was featured on the show&#8217;s last season, but since then, <a href="https://www.hotnewhiphop.com/cyn-santana-apologizes-for-past-comments-on-black-men-preferring-latina-women-news.97412.html" target="_blank" rel="nofollow noopener">the pair have decided to call off their engagemen</a>t. They&#8217;ve since gone their separate ways and are working on a healthy co-parenting relationship.</p>
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<p>Months ago, Cyn chatted with Tiffany &#8220;New York&#8221; Pollard about her split from Joe, saying that it was a decision she had to make for her future. &#8220;I did what was best for my mental health, for my peace, and for me and my son,&#8221; she stated at the time. &#8220;Basically, let&#8217;s just sat that I&#8217;m probably the happiest that I&#8217;ve ever been. And<a href="https://www.hotnewhiphop.com/joe-budden-and-cyn-santana-attend-erica-menas-baby-shower-together-news.96475.html" target="_blank" rel="nofollow noopener"> that was probably the best decision I&#8217;ve made in my entire life</a> in the 26 years I&#8217;ve been living on this earth. The best decision I made was leaving that relationship, and my son and I are amazing.&#8221;</p>
<p>While watching footage of Joe&#8217;s proposal recently along with loving highlights of their relationship, Cyn became so overwhelmed with emotion that she walked off. Out of frame,<a href="https://www.hotnewhiphop.com/joe-buddens-mood-shifts-after-mal-mentions-cyn-santana-during-chat-about-sexy-talk-news.94366.html" target="_blank" rel="nofollow noopener"> Cyn can be heard sobbing as a producer tells her,</a> &#8220;It&#8217;s okay.&#8221; The same producer offers her a hug as Cyn continues to cry. &#8220;It&#8217;s so hard,&#8221; she said between tears. &#8220;I really wanted my family.&#8221;  The producer told her, &#8220;You can still work on your family.&#8221; Cyn replied, &#8220;It&#8217;s not the same. I&#8217;m not going back out there.&#8221; </p>
<p>When she returned to the set, Cyn has composed herself. &#8220;It&#8217;s been a year since this,&#8221; she said. &#8220;<a href="https://www.hotnewhiphop.com/cyn-santana-questions-how-long-heartbreak-lasts-months-after-joe-budden-split-news.90836.html" target="_blank" rel="nofollow noopener">That was just a really beautiful moment for me. I&#8217;m sad and disappointed and</a>&#8230;it&#8217;s just hard. It&#8217;s hard when you really want things to work and they&#8217;re not working on your time or according to your plan. I got faith and hope for days and years and at the end of the day, that&#8217;s the father of my son. Family is super important to me. It&#8217;s different now.&#8221; Watch below.</p>
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