Jhene Aiko released her short film "TRIP" yesterday ahead of her upcoming album TRIP 17. The short film stars Aiko as a poet named Penny who goes on an impromptu journey with a stranger while mourning the death of her brother. The film also features brand new, unheard music as well as poetry that she's written. Today, Jhene Aiko dropped a voice clip on Soundcloud called "MAP Mission". The clip gives us a glimpse into the struggles she's been facing over the past several years after her brother passed away in 2012. 

"When I was born, my Grampy gave me the nickname “Penny”. Penny is me in my purest, most authentic form. On July 19th 2012, I lost my brother Miyagi to an inoperable brain tumor. He was 26. My brother and I were very close. We were only 2 years apart. I never thought of him as a separate person, but an extension of myself. He was my reflection. In his presence I was confident and always so sure. I was Penny." she starts off.

After the death of her brother, she details the ways she has tried to cope and escape from the pain. However, she says that they always end up leading back to her brother's memory.

"I try to get closer to my brother by doing different drugs, hoping that if I get high enough I can reach him, but they only take me further away," she says, "I try to get closer to my brother by doing different drugs, hoping that if I get high enough I can reach him, but they only take me further away. I distract myself with work, which buys me things I wish I could share with him. I distract myself with work, which causes stress I wish he were here to help me with."

Since then, she says she's been keeping notebooks documenting her journeys and her emotions. She has since turned those into what she refers to as a "MAP" which stands for a movie, album and poetry book. 

"This map has been helping me navigate through my suffering, uncovering the righteous path that has been carved out before and for me…
Helping me identify my pain and my mistakes so that I can move forward and reach my full potential and find the light at the end of the tunnel" she says.

You could read and listen to the full "MAP" Mission below

When I was born, my Grampy gave me the nickname “Penny”. 

Penny is me in my purest, most authentic form. 

On July 19th 2012, I lost my brother Miyagi to an inoperable brain tumor. He was 26.

My brother and I were very close. We were only 2 years apart. I never thought of him as a separate person, but an extension of myself. He was my reflection. In his presence I was confident and always so sure. I was Penny. 

Since that day I have been incomplete,
losing all direction and sense of self.

Since that day I have been lost trying to find him…
 trying to find my way back to my self… back to Penny.
 
I turn to writing as my form of therapy, but it’s never quite enough.
I released 2 projects since then, but I wasn’t quite myself.
 
I try to find my brother’s love in other men, but they never can compare.
 
I try to get closer to my brother by doing different drugs, hoping that if I get high enough I can reach him, but they only take me further away. 
 
I distract myself with work, which buys me things I wish I could share with him.
I distract myself with work, which causes stress I wish he were here to help me with.
 
The presence of my daughter, my siblings, my parents… only make his absence more apparent.
 
And so, I find myself taking trips, trying to escape any person, place or thing that is too familiar.
 
Physical trips by car, by plane…
Mental trips with controlled substances… 
Trips in solitude in hopes that the quiet will bring me and my brother back together.
 
Through out these travels I’ve been keeping a record of my dreams, feelings and experiences in notebooks.
 
I turned these notebooks into a MAP.
 
Movie (TRIP - a short film) , an Album (TRIP) and a Poetry book (2fish
 
This map has been helping me navigate through my suffering, 
uncovering the righteous path that has been carved out before and for me…
Helping me identify my pain and my mistakes so that I can move forward and reach my full potential and find the light at the end of the tunnel…
 
My personal “hero’s journey”. 
 
And although I am not there yet… I know I’m getting closer.
 
This map was made by me, for me…  but I feel obligated to share because I know that I am not alone in my suffering. 
 
If there’s one thing I’m sure of it’s that every single person on this planet is suffering. 

Not a single soul in this world is immune to the pain of losing someone they love.

The reality of this life is, at some point we will all lose someone we love.
 
In sharing this MAP, I hope to inspire others to be more present in the lives of the people they love. 
 
I hope this MAP encourages honesty, empathy and compassion. 
 
In sharing this MAP, I hope to inspire others to share their own mistakes, imperfections and fears… because I believe in doing so we can understand each other better and realize we are more alike than different.
 
In sharing this MAP, I hope to inspire others to share their grief and pain because I believe suffering can be alleviated when we understand we are not going through any of it alone.