New York Giants kicker Josh Brown served a one-game suspension to start the season for violating the league's Personal Conduct Policy, stemming from his 2015 arrest for domestic violence. Documents from that domestic violence case were recently made public and it shows that the kicker admitted, in a journal entry, to "physically, emotionally and verbally" abusing his wife.

Brown's journal, as well as emails, were given to Kings County Sheriff's Office investigators by his then-wife, Molly Brown, following his arrest in May of last year. In the journal, Brown wrote, "I have physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man... I have abused my wife." And in another entry, "I have been a horrible husband and stepfather."

According to, in a letter written to friends in March of 2014, Brown revealed the following disturbing message:

“I have been a liar for most of my life,” he wrote. “I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them."

"My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero. Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and hurt [my wife] physically, emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave."

The NFL has said that because of a lack of cooperation from Molly Brown the league was only able to suspend the kicker for one-game for violating the league’s personal conduct policy.

The Giants, on the other hand, were fully aware of these allegations and could've decided not to resign Brown, but they did anyway. Here's what team owner John Mara said in August prior to the start of the season.

"When we made the decision to re-sign Brown back in [April of 2016], we were certainly aware of the arrest. We were also aware of the allegations associated with that arrest, and the fact the charges were dropped within a couple of days after the arrest." 

Meanwhile, the wide receiver who has an ongoing love affair with a kicking net is the player that has been getting all of the heat from the media.

The Giants will be flying to London for a game against the Rams this Sunday and it would be shocking if Brown is on that flight in light of this new information.